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Week Ten

Week Ten

I decided not to wait until the end of this week before updating my journal. It has been an interesting week, to say the least. After Friday’s worship service, I went straight to the shelter to do an extra shift. We lost two employees within one month so everyone is expected to work overtime. I had only three hours of sleep that day and was also training a new employee that night.

My kids have been sick off and on for weeks (always happens during the first nine weeks of school), and I had been fighting the flu bug several days. It finally caught up with me, probably due to insufficient sleep. I got fever and chills that night and ended up staying in bed the whole weekend. In a way it was a good thing because I got a chance to study the Word and seek God after such tumultuous week, spiritually speaking. I wouldn’t have been able to find all those passages that convicted me and described God’s views on the issues I’ve been dealing with.

I expected to undergo a psychic attack after posting those condemning bible passages on the website that draws so many practicioners of occult. It’s basically a smorgasboard of what ever supernatural interests one may have, a "shining" example of how the devil masquerades as an angel of light! It might seem like asking for more trouble, going back and telling about my conviction, but I had to do it! Maybe God will convict someone who’s about to enter into such deception, to turn around and come back to Him.

Physically, I was quite weak so all I could do was pray to God for His strength and protection. I was reassured that despite all my weakness He is still strong and His mercy endures! Praise the Lord, all my burdens were lifted off and I received forgiveness and rest in Him.

Put on the whole armor of God, that’s our best defense! Today is halloween. Thank You Jesus, we did not celebrate it this year. The way it usually goes, first we discuss what it’s all about, how we as christians should have no part in such etc. etc., (look who’s talking, I know Lord, I know, thank goodness my kids don’t!!!) but end up giving in and letting them go trick-or treat with neighbors and friends. I stood firm this time and though they were invited to go along, I said no. and no. and once again no. They were upset, watching so-and-so leave, until just they were left at home. Presently, it started to rain and has been absolutely miserable weather all evening long.

Hope it’ll be a peaceful night at the shelter.
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My work week is done and over with… I have a need. A strong and urgent need for Lord’s healing in our family’s life, for all of us to be restored in the spirit, because we have been going through trials and there seems to be no end in sight.

My 16-year old son caught the flu bug about three weeks ago, and since that day he has attended school only twice… He was genuinely ill, throwing up a lot and losing weight due to a severe intestinal flu. He then caught a different bug, and was too weak to attend school. Now he has a ton of make-up work and not enough motivation to do it all. He’s in the IB program which is the most demanding academic program in high school.

There are many factors at play. I work nights (Sun-Thu) when he’s supposed to be sleeping. His father sleeps soundly and goes to bed early in order to wake up at 6am to take our son to school, then drive to his own work. Partly due to his sickness, our son has spent his days in bed and then stayed up every night until morning. Then when it’s time to get up, his dad ends up leaving for work without taking him to school. I’ve had numerous struggles trying to force our son to go to school after coming home from my shift (and getting the other three to school) but without success. At times, it turns into a physical struggle, as I try forcing him to go. Just the other day I kicked in the bathroom door and the heel of my shoe went right through it… We were engaged in "trying to push the door in/keeping it closed" battle. I pointed out to B. that if he has enough physical strength to fight me, he must be strong enough to attend school. He broke down crying. I had to give up.

Our son has become somewhat antisocial, locking himself in his room for hours on end, coming out only to take care of his physical needs. I’ve even started to carry food up to him to make him eat, he won’t even come downstairs to the kitchen, except at night. It worries me greatly to observe his increasingly passive, intraverted behavior. I recently read (from one of his school papers) how he feels that his faith is "waning" and he no longer believes that God even exists. He has not attended our church for weeks, even though he’s in charge of working the videoscreens during service. Needless to say, many urgent prayers have been sent to Lord God Almighty, to reach the heart of this child and fix things up.

Yesterday, after yet another struggle we finally talked. I had exhausted every method I could think of. He was vomiting, I had decided to take him to E.R., thinking maybe hospitalizing him over the weekend might help (they’d put him on IV and he’d gain some strength). He talked me out of it (ate a bowl of cereal to prove that he could keep it in) then promised to attend a meeting at Upper Room, saying, maybe that’s what he needs. I felt hope. Momentary hope. The next idea was, maybe I’m suffering from the same condition as dad. No, son, dad’s condition (chronic gastritis) is not what you have. Maybe this house is making me ill. Yeah, right…

We bounced around "in circles" and I tried talking sense to him (you know what happens to truants, they’re court ordered 30-90 days to programs such as the one I work at etc.). He checked it out on the internet and informed me: that’s only for such cases that have no valid excuses. He had seen a doctor and was on 3 different medications, including antibiotics and nebulizer, his school had all the documents. I tried pleading, they will send a CPI (child protective investigator) to come and take you away- same results. We discussed his mental state. Mom, it’s mental… I’m depressed (we discussed depression, apathy, which he indeed seems prone to). This is possible, he may be paralyzed by fear. Afraid to go back to face the music, he moves it further (I’ll go tomorrow-I’ll attend last three periods and so on). What else can I tink of… Hmmm, perhaps I should have him Baker-acted… But he has not exhibited self-destructive or aggressive tendencies, aside from normal sibling rivalry.

We’ve been too busy as parents. We don’t have time for him. He’s lost all his friends. He has nothing to look forward to. All hope is lost. He might as well just quit.

And then, on the contrary; I want to do something special, I’ll get into biochemistry, genetic research etc. I want to discover new things that no-one yet knows about!

My brilliant, intelligent son. How on earth can even normal families make it through the teen years- much less the dysfunctional ones (and I’ll be going through it x4, yikes!)…

I’ve been working all week. Today I’m trying to get our 5br home cleaned and disinfected, laundry caught up, bills paid, all without sleeping after a long night. How could I possibly have any time for resting! I’m cleaning, ignoring the "situations" we’re going through. When the house is in order, it’s easier to deal with other issues, that’s how I see it. I listen to soothing gospel music, pray my daddy to lift up the burdens, make my mouth form words of praise when I feel like cursing… As I work nonstop all day long, anger and hatred starts to grow inside of me, self-pity and resentment towards the family, my loved ones. They’re weak, they’re lazy, they’re this and that. Just look at this pig-sty! Bunch of pigs, I say!!! Accompanied by words that I dare not write down nor say aloud! Mercy!!!

2 Cor: 3-6 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.

Yup. That’s the hardest one Lord. My thoughts are far from being captive into obedience of Christ. Lord, I’m a murderer in my mind. My thoughts instead, at times, are in captivity to the evil one, full of hate and vengeance! Take this hate and replace it with love Lord! My loved ones are suffering, help me fulfill your commandment Lord. You said; Carry each other’s burdens. Give me strength to do just that Daddy!!! I’m empty of compassion, I myself have no more love to give… I hold You to your word Lord, I hold onto it for dear life; that in my weakness, You are STRONG! Make it that way Lord, for I have nothing left.
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A new day and renewed strength, Bless you Lord for lifting off our burdens!
We made a concentrated effort to straighten up the house, the children all
pitched in doing their chores and helping mom. They’re our blessings, together
we are strong! Lord keep us united in love. We’re facing some troubles ahead, as
our teens have made mistakes along the way and need some correcting. But most of
all, they need to establish their own personal relationship with You Lord, to
see them through those troubled times.

We’re human and oftentimes speak the things of flesh, not of the spirit. It
became so very clear once again, after our Saturday worship service. We started
in the spirit but finished in the flesh, discussing the various problems we
encounter, making observations, even critizicing the people and groups we’ve
associated with in the past. It’s good to be able to talk with dear brothers and
sisters, but when the "thought" train takes off on the wrong tracks, watch out!
We end up sinning against our own family members. Of such transgression, I was
convicted by the Holy Spirit upon returning home.

Also, a thought of caution entered my mind, are we slowly becoming an island
unto ourselves? We need to hear from God before we go too far in certain
erroneous ways, such as excluding or critizicing others, false pride and
haughtiness. Lord -search our hearts, teach us humility and mold our minds
to express that which is acceptable in your sight. To build up the body of
Christ. Amen.

Week Nine

Week Nine

I messed up this week. A series of events unfolded due to my disobedience and my only hope is that Lord in His mercy will forgive me once more.

I visited a website which contains my old AP journal (my thread alone has over 1,000 reads) with an intent of witnessing. I borrowed a couple of paragraphs from this journal, in order to testify to the world (forum members come from all over the world) how being baptized in the name of Jesus helped me overcome experiencing and desiring the supernatural. Guess what, I got caught in the same old snare again because of my foolish curiosity!

There were new members. A certain European caught my special attention, as he claimed to be Christ incarnate! In horror, yet with a growing interest, I read on. And then decided to pray for the salvation of his soul. Naive or not, my prayers were earnest and I was in great distress over this person’s spiritual condition. Who knows, God may one day turn him around, deceived, blasphemous man… To God, everything is possible!

Along with "checking what’s new" I engaged in a few discussions, and ended up expressing how I at times still long to leave my physical restraints and soar! Sure enough, I left my body the very same night while resting at work. Usually I won’t doze off because of my sensitivity to the spirit activity around the shelter and to avoid spirit oppression which I’ve experienced in the past (which is basically what Holy Bible describes as "terror flying by night" or night terrors).

But that night I decided to rest awhile in the back office. Within minutes I got "out" but could not manage to get through the wall, it was too dense. There was an apparition of a beautiful tall girl standing by the door and I tried to talk to her but she turned away, looking sad. I slipped back to my body, yet my arms and legs were still "out" and flailing about, while the rest of me was stuck. I was aware of the entities around me and (since I did not sense any of the malevolent ones) decided to ask for assistance. Little hands grasped my wrists and pulled me out. I didn’t care about the momentary pain it caused me as I was bent on making an exit!

I will not describe the places I entered nor the acquintances I made while out of body.

Upon visiting the website of my old journal the following day, I wrote a detailed report about the experience. A moderator at the forum commented that I had probably entered another reality.

After the excitement subsided, I felt remorse and cried out to God in desperation: Why did you allow me to go there? Why didn’t you stop me? Will that portal always remain open? How could I grieve God’s Holy Spirit in such an abominable way… This is what I had feared, that I’d one day commit spiritual adultery!!! I remembered Samuel, how he had turned to mediums and soothsayers after God hid His face from him.

I went to the word to search for answers. God convicted me with the following passages (in NKJV):

I found this, concerning spiritual adultery:

Leviticus 19:31 ‘ Give no regard to mediums and familiar spirits; do not seek after them, to be defiled by them: I am the LORD your God. Leviticus 20: 6 ‘And the person who turns to mediums and familiar spirits, to prostitute himself with them, I will set My face against that person and cut him off from his people. Consecrate yourselves therefore, and be holy, for I am the LORD your God. And you shall keep My statutes, and perform them: I am the LORD who sanctifies you.

Hosea 4: 12 My people ask counsel from their wooden idols, And their staff informs them. For the spirit of harlotry has caused them to stray, And they have played the harlot against their God.

In several places God condemns such practices which cause His anger to rise:

Deuteronomy 18:10-14 "There shall not be found among you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire, or one who practices witchcraft, or a soothsayer, or one who interprets omens, or a sorcerer, or one who conjures spells, or a medium, or a spiritist, or one who calls up the dead. For all who do these things are an abomination to the LORD, and because of these abominations the LORD your God drives them out from before you. You shall be blameless before the LORD your God. For these nations which you will dispossess listened to soothsayers and diviners; but as for you, the LORD your God has not appointed such for you.

2 Chronicles 33: 5,6 ‘And he built altars for all the host of heaven in the two courts of the house of the LORD. Also he caused his sons to pass through the fire in the Valley of the Son of Hinnom; he practiced soothsaying, used witchcraft and sorcery, and consulted mediums and spiritists. He did much evil in the sight of the LORD, to provoke Him to anger.

Lord reminded me several times of the first commandment, it rang over and over in my mind: I am the Lord thy God, thou shalt have no other gods before Me. Only Him and Him alone should we serve!

Jesus is the only way, he is the light of the world:

Isaiah 8:13-15 The LORD of hosts, Him you shall hallow; Let Him be your fear, And let Him be your dread. He will be as a sanctuary, But a stone of stumbling and a rock of offense To both the houses of Israel, As a trap and a snare to the inhabitants of Jerusalem. And many among them shall stumble; They shall fall and be broken, Be snared and taken. 19-22 And when they say to you, "Seek those who are mediums and wizards, who whisper and mutter," should not a people seek their God? Should they seek the dead on behalf of the living? To the law and to the testimony! If they do not speak according to this word, it is because there is no light in them. They will pass through it hard pressed and hungry; and it shall happen, when they are hungry, that they will be enraged and curse their king and their God, and look upward. Then they will look to the earth, and see trouble and darkness, gloom of anguish; and they will be driven into darkness.

The consequences of choosing deception:

Isaiah 47: 9-14 But these two things shall come to you In a moment, in one day: The loss of children, and widowhood. They shall come upon you in their fullness Because of the multitude of your sorceries, For the great abundance of your enchantments. "For you have trusted in your wickedness; You have said, ‘No one sees me’; Your wisdom and your knowledge have warped you; And you have said in your heart, ‘I am, and there is no one else besides me.’ Therefore evil shall come upon you; You shall not know from where it arises. And trouble shall fall upon you; You will not be able to put it off. And desolation shall come upon you suddenly, Which you shall not know. Stand now with your enchantments And the multitude of your sorceries, In which you have labored from your youth — Perhaps you will be able to profit, Perhaps you will prevail. You are wearied in the multitude of your counsels; Let now the astrologers, the stargazers, And the monthly prognosticators Stand up and save you From what shall come upon you. Behold, they shall be as stubble, The fire shall burn them; They shall not deliver themselves From the power of the flame;It shall not be a coal to be warmed by, Nor a fire to sit before!

of following false prophets:

Jeremiah 14: 10-15 Thus says the LORD to this people: "Thus they have loved to wander; They have not restrained their feet. Therefore the LORD does not accept them; He will remember their iniquity now, And punish their sins." Then the LORD said to me, "Do not pray for this people, for their good. When they fast, I will not hear their cry; and when they offer burnt offering and grain offering, I will not accept them. But I will consume them by the sword, by the famine, and by the pestilence." Then I said, "Ah, Lord GOD! Behold, the prophets say to them, ‘You shall not see the sword, nor shall you have famine, but I will give you assured peace in this place.’ And the LORD said to me, "The prophets prophesy lies in My name. I have not sent them, commanded them, nor spoken to them; they prophesy to you a false vision, divination, a worthless thing, and the deceit of their heart. Therefore thus says the LORD concerning the prophets who prophesy in My name, whom I did not send, and who say, ‘Sword and famine shall not be in this land’ — ‘By sword and famine those prophets shall be consumed!

of listening to the soul/spirit of man instead of Spirit of God:

Jer. 29: 8,9 For thus says the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel: Do not let your prophets and your diviners who are in your midst deceive you, nor listen to your dreams which you cause to be dreamed. For they prophesy falsely to you in My name; I have not sent them, says the LORD.

Ezekiel 13:1-3 ‘And the word of the LORD came to me, saying, Son of man, prophesy against the prophets of Israel who prophesy, and say to those who prophesy out of their own heart, Hear the word of the LORD! Thus says the Lord GOD: "Woe to the foolish prophets, who follow their own spirit and have seen nothing!

6-8 ‘They have envisioned futility and false divination, saying, Thus says the LORD!’ But the LORD has not sent them; yet they hope that the word may be confirmed. Have you not seen a futile vision, and have you not spoken false divination? You say, ‘The LORD says,’ but I have not spoken. Therefore thus says the Lord GOD: "Because you have spoken nonsense and envisioned lies, therefore I am indeed against you," says the Lord GOD.

God is our only guide to the truth, He controls everything:

Zechariah 10:1,2 Ask the LORD for rain In the time of the latter rain. The LORD will make flashing clouds; He will give them showers of rain, Grass in the field for everyone. 2 For the idols speak delusion; The diviners envision lies, And tell false dreams; They comfort in vain. Therefore the people wend their way like sheep; They are in trouble because there is no shepherd.

Finally, Jude gives us a clear warning and explains why we should not dabble with the powers of darkness nor the hidden powers of human mind and soul:

Jude 6-10 And the angels who did not keep their proper domain, but left their own abode, He has reserved in everlasting chains under darkness for the judgment of the great day; as Sodom and Gomorrah, and the cities around them in a similar manner to these, having given themselves over to sexual immorality and gone after strange flesh, are set forth as an example, suffering the vengeance of eternal fire. Likewise also these dreamers defile the flesh, reject authority, and speak evil of dignitaries. Yet Michael the archangel, in contending with the devil, when he disputed about the body of Moses, dared not bring against him a reviling accusation, but said, "The Lord rebuke you!" But these speak evil of whatever they do not know; and whatever they know naturally, like brute beasts, in these things they corrupt themselves.

17-22 But you, beloved, remember the words which were spoken before by the apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ: how they told you that there would be mockers in the last time who would walk according to their own ungodly lusts. These are sensual persons, who cause divisions, not having the Spirit. But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life. And on some have compassion, making a distinction; but others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire, hating even the garment defiled by the flesh.

After a week of spiritual conflict, I felt ashamed to attend our Friday night meeting, surely my iniquity will be revealed and dealt with! What took place instead, every song we sang that night, God was revealing His majesty, His Dominion, His Truth and His Reign over everything that is, was, and will be in heaven and earth.

(I posted the above passages along with my notes as the final message in my AP journal)

Week Eight


Just a quick overview of this week’s events;

It started off great, our stay at the jacquzzi suite proved to be exactly
what we both needed. Pretending to be carefree like a couple who just started
dating, we enjoyed our togetherness, eating out, going to a movie (One night
with a King, based on the book of Esther). We even spent a few hours in an
atique store, each losing one’s self in the charm of yesteryear. Must be a sign
of a pretty good relationship, spending hours on end inside the same store,
perfectly content with not knowing the whereabouts of the loved one or what kind
of weird stuff he or she will end up dragging home. My hubby found an old
wind-up record player from the 30’s, I came up with some porcelain (two
victorian and a hummel type) figurines.

Our reservation ended on Monday, but I attended Sunday nite service at the
Upper Room. It started off uplifting as usual, but as the evening progressed, we
observed brother L. in discomfort. He had learned some bad news earlier, about
not having received the correct treatment procedures for his condition. He’s
been dealing with it for a year or so, a very painful condition. Maybe we all
thought about the need of praying and laying hands on brother L. but did
nothing, other than showing concern and and asking how he was… It was only
after he and sister S. had already left, that the rest of us started discussing
what went wrong. And finally prayed on our dear brother’s behalf. My heart goes
out to brother L. Heal him speedily Lord!

From there on, I went to my night shift at the shelter. Unaware that the teens
had managed to disarm their bedroom window alarms during the previous shift, one
was sneaking outside through her bedroom window and in through a window of the
opposite wing. This happened in the darkness of the night. Here I thought I was
right on top of all things, keeping my eyes on the cameras, checking them
constantly while making copies etc. The cameras of course did not show anything
until the client tried to sneak back to her own side through the shelter, and
that’s when I caught her. Not knowing exactly what had taken place, I decided to
leave it up to God and remained silent about the incident. Sure enough, the camera footage was
checked the following day and the puzzle pieces came together. I did not get the
blame this time, nevertheless, I felt betrayed by those sneaky rascals.

Some of the important lessons were learned along the events that took place:
Take time to reconnect with your mate, obey when Holy Spirit prompts you to act,
and never, I mean NEVER underestimate the cunning of teenagers!

Just a Little Update

Made a reservation @ the local motel for tonite.  Jacquzzi suite, here we come, hip hurray!

Week Seven

Week Seven

What a great week to kick the devil’s butt! I’ve been more bold at the shelter when addressing the teens about their issues, such as listening to nasty lyrics in some hip-hop songs. I had a short but good talk with D. about that as I came in few hours early one night. He softened up, and I hope my message got through to him- don’t wanna sound like I’m preachin’ or somethin’ U know…

I had two nights off this week, WOW! Awesome! My princess turned seven and we prepared a pool party for her and mainly the neighborhood kids (there are plenty of rugrats around here). Had a great time, about a dozen kids (including mine) and a half dozen adults. Swimming, water balloons, pin-the-tail, pinjata and all that fun stuff! B. took control of the activities lining up the kids etc. She made it more enjoyable to all, by using her structuring and organizing skills. Well done B, bless you! Cake was tasty too. I took the rest of it to shelter to share with the teens.

M. has been doing my whole family’s laundry all week long. She’s been blessing me more than she could ever imagine! I cannot express the magnitude of my gratitude in words… Bless her Lord, bless her abundantly for her helpfulness!!!

I also received a very special blessing through a precious friend and brother in Christ this week.  This Finnish brother is such an important tool in God’s kingdom, and I am honored to call him a friend. He stands firm in the Word -and Lord has given him special gifts to use in his ministry.  My current standing close to God is due to his prayers and support, along with other dear friends who have blessed me in more ways than I could tell.  Brother M. sent me a message of encouragement and blessings, in a form of a prayer.  Listening to his voice via mp3, I marveled at how much I’ve received from my Heavenly Father…  Many of these friends, brothers and sisters do not even know one another, because they are scattered around the world, from Scandinavia to Canada to sunny Florida.  Praise you Father, for you unite us, Your children, binding us closer than we are "even to our own" kin! 

Friday night at the Upper Room was -how could I explain it- triumphant! God spoke through J. again, giving us instruction and encouragement. Brother L. was prostrate on the floor, God must’ve been talking to him on a very personal level. I felt power like never before, as the Holy Spirit moved among our tiny little group. There were just a few of us, but that did not matter! Awesome! We spent almost four hours together (some of us), reflecting on our walk and faith. Brother J. said, that he pictured a heap of junk in the corner as our troubles and burdens were casted off during worship.

Upon returning home I was confronted by a very unhappy husband. Call this a "crashlanding from The Spirit High" back to earth! I had neglected my family… I know (and admit my guilt) but I had missed so many other meetings!!! And the house was clean and the shopping and the laundry were done! And we had planned on quality time together from Sat evening until Sunday anyway, with B and M. babysitting. Hope it’ll still work out that way. Better get off this computer and start making some plans!

Week Six

Week Six

Another week has gone by, and so much has happened. Jo-Jo was brought back home, B and M reconciled, all things looking good! First night at work, I was prayerfully reflecting on the previous week’s events, meditating on God’s word and listening to uplifting gospel songs, soothing and comforting the spirit. J. came by, dirty and apologetic. He had left the place he’d been staying at, in order to avoid getting into a fight. He was barefoot and hungry. He had a job interview that morning, and needed a bath, set of clean clothes and food. We could not find him any shoes though, I hope God provided him some before the interview. Give him a chance, to make it Lord! Please let him get that job!!!

B. needed to rest after a rough weekend so I did the routine checks and chores that night. Nothing out of the ordinary, or so I thought! Next day, the bosses had called several times while I was resting, trying to get a hold of me and B. Apparently, a couple of the boys had managed to sneak over to the girls’ wing (while another one kept me busy, requesting meds for an upset stomach). Meanwhile, the others spent a good long while in the unauthorized area. Naturally, I was to blame, being the one on the camera footage. So I got a warning and "submitting my guilt" signed it… Co-workers voiced their disagreement, they thought it wasn’t fair. But isn’t it better to take the judgment from men than end up being judged by God (for not submitting to one’s "master" or boss) right?

It was a rough week. B. and I had agreed to switch a couple of shifts with another employee who needed the weekend off. At the last minute, she changed her mind and so B took off to Miami, and I did the usual- instead of sleeping after the shift I stayed up doing laundry, housework etc. Got another phone call, the employee needed the time off after all! I ended up doing a 16-hr shift Sat-Sun am, and during the last half-hour one of them rascals did the exact same thing, sneaking over to the "forbidden" wing while I was using the bathroom! I felt absolutely distraught – why me, Lord?! Why me, AGAIN?!

I went to Upper Room for the evening worship, after having a good long cry in Lord’s presence. He made it all okay! I was so blessed, rejoicing and praising Him with my whole heart, forgetting all my troubles! I received such support, prayer and love that my burden was lifted up and I was able to go back to work at midnight all happy and refreshed!

Brother L. (who used to work with me @ the shelter) said he’d help me get an easier job. Hmm, something to consider, maybe… Brother J. said something very important to me that night. He basically asked me not to give the devil too much credit, because it will empower him to do even more damage. I hadn’t thought about it that way before, but it’s absolutely true! I realized that, when voicing my complaints, I often brought up the devil even when the cause of my distress was either circumstancial or caused by the work of the flesh. Thanks, J for that word! Jesus and I… R’ gonna kick the devil’s *ss from now on!

That Sunday night we received a wonderful and uplifting message from the Lord during praise. He spoke through J. as we were in the middle of the free-flowing portion of our praise, bringing Lord our adoration in various ways, as we often do. (I mostly "whisper" because I’m shy, but some of us are bold and pretty loud at times too, praise God!). In His message, the Lord asked us to be patient and assured us that He is listening to His children -that our praises reach His Heavenly throne! Hallelujah, Thank You Jesus!

Lately, I’ve felt a new, unique sensation in my hands while lifting them up in praise. Besides the normal tingling sensation (the one I usually get in presence of the Holy Spirit), I at times feel like there’s a circle or a hole "circulating" in the palm of my hand. And the tingling is more like a strong current, sometimes I even feel it pulsating. It’s quite an awesome feeling! At times I get a surge of power, it’s like I can hardly stay in my skin!!! Awesome -but when I get that kind of a charge while I’m in bed, praying, I might as well forget about sleeping…

good news/bad news

Good news first: Jo-Jo was found and is safely back in his mommies arms! Bad news, I have to think about that before posting it.  All in God’s hands, in any case!

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